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11 Aug 2013 1 Comment
in August 2013, poetry Tags: life, memories
The memories they linger
no matter how long it’s been
is it as hard as it seems
to make them go
Why do they stay
are the feelings still there
is it that the love refuses
to go
Or is it something else
guilt perhaps
and the unforgiven
who won’t go
Always in the mind
the first memories awake
or asleep
why don’t they go
Will they stay forever
is there no way to be free
still here
please go
02 Aug 2013 5 Comments
in August 2012, poetry Tags: eraser, life, memories
If only there were an eraser big enough
to wipe the memories clean
leave nothing behind
seen and unseen
Take away what will not leave
lingering ghosts of the past
maybe then the mind
could be free at last
Places, faces, feelings, choices
everything connected to you
back to when I believed
what was said was true
Every day they come
to bring the hurt anew
why can’t an eraser
wipe my mind of you
17 May 2013 Leave a comment
in May 2013, poetry Tags: beginning, ending, goodbye, life, memories
The time has come to say goodbye
today becomes a piece of the past
now to start a new journey
ready to take those steps at last
The memories of all there was
entwined within our heart
remaining there forever more
even though we will be apart
In years to come we will recall
the laughter, tears and all we shared
we will never truly forget
how much we all cared
But now the time has come at last
can’t stop it no matter how we try
all that now is left
is just to say goodbye
03 Apr 2013 Leave a comment
in April 2013, poetry Tags: beginning, end, last, life, memories
The last time that you were there
it was Spring as it is now
and I was there
watching you slip away
remembering all the past
memories flooding me like a Spring rain
somehow it was only the good things
the last time that you were there
The last time that you were there
tears flowed like a melting river
as if my soul could be washed clean
and I was there
The last time you were there
new life waited to begin
as part of my life ended
and I was there
13 Aug 2012 Leave a comment
in August 2012, poetry Tags: death, life, love, memories, remembering
Molten gold now hard and cold
Tiny sparkles of light lined in twisted rows
Wrapping their arms around a center star
Like a galaxy filled with unnumbered delights
The finger grows older more lined
The love grows sweeter and more refined
The golden sparkle remains with a new owner
One filled with memories of the wearer who came before
04 Mar 2012 10 Comments
in March 2012, poetry Tags: emotion, feelings, love, memories, past
Somehow the past remains at the edges
lapping against the mind as waves upon the sand
taking a bit here and a bit there leaving no trace
and yet you feel it there a shadow and a thought
You believe that you’ve moved beyond the past
that regret is not something you live with
but at the edges its cold and icy fingers reach in
and you can barely feel it
You work to stay in the center avoiding the dark edges
keeping the shadows of what was out of the what is
pushing down the memories pushing back on the waves
always reconstructing the wall
The memories they whisper they brush at your mind
each one growing fainter and yet the icy touch still there
time to push back move away towards the center
live as if they don’t exist
12 Apr 2011 4 Comments
in April 2011, poetry Tags: emotions, memories, past, regret, shadows, strength
And lo though I walk through this life with no regret
the shadows they follow me still
the past is gone but unforgotten as yet
it lingers at the corners against my will
And lo though I walk knowing it is better now
the stitches of the wounds remain
to completely erase rewind forget somehow
these things I cannot yet attain
And lo though I walk in love and light
the darkness that once was creeps in and out
even though I resist with all my might
just a little twinge just a little doubt
And lo though I walk renewed and stronger
the shadows remain just out of reach
wishing them gone to be here no longer
but there are still lessons they must teach
22 Sep 2010 18 Comments
in poetry, September 2010 Tags: emotion, loss, love, memories, strength
All the while I thought I had put it all away
the memories of what was left as they lay
with just one look there they came rushing back again
taking my heart back to remember when
So hard I’ve tried to push away at the edges of my soul
slowly piecing back together the parts to make a whole
and rushing back now overwhelmed unable to make them stop
like raindrops of memory drop by drop by drop
Like a river it overtakes me and I can no longer breathe it seems
invading every thought awake even into my dreams
things I thought were long since gone are back just as real
if I could only find a way to no longer feel
Rushing waters of memory wash over my soul as waves upon the sand
battering on every emotion so hard now just to stand
slowly I push back until the water I no longer feel
left once again to wonder what was and wasn’t real
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